Wednesday 25 April 2018

Day 25 : A TV show you’re currently addicted to

Day 25 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to
Is TV show here include drama and variety show and everything that is on TV? Well let just do my way then :)
So for April, I watch Live and really love the drama. At first I only watch it because of Lee Kwang Soo and then while watching the teaser there was Bae Jong Ok and Sung Dong Il ! of course it makes me want to watch it more. 
Here is the synopsis from wikipedia :)
Live tells the story of police officers - from the lowest field cadets and patrol officers, to their superiors including corporals, captains, and more - as they form the 'Live' team at the Hongil patrol division. Each officer has their own story, and each works hard in their own places at one of the busiest, most stressful jobs in the world, in order to earn a living.
Lee Kwang Soo really is a good actor and poor him why do this drama also joke about his height? but maybe it is his charm and you can really spot him because of his height among those police when they are in line. Apart from Kwang Soo and the heroin, Jung Yu Mi story, Bae Jong Ok and his partner in the drama also play a big part in the drama. I almost confused why do Bae Jong Ok and Bae Sung Woo seem to have a bigger role in this drama. Isnt Kwang Soo the main lead?
Perhaps because they want to portray sunbae and hoobae or mentor-like relationship so they share the main role in this drama. Nevertheless it was worth it to watch this despite having thought like do Korean police do have to deal withh drunk people like that and it makes you realize how heavy their job really are and we really should appreciate them.

Tuesday 24 April 2018

Day 24 : A photo of something that means a lot to you

Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you
 This is quite tough. I dont want to put any of my personal picture here so let skip this part first and I will come back if I have any idea. Sorry. You may skip to other post. Thank you. :)

Monday 23 April 2018

Day 23 : Your dream wedding

Day 23 – Your dream wedding
One of the things that i really would like to have is those moment when bride and groom walk on the red carpet ( or whatever carpet or no carpet) accompanied by kompang before bersanding atas pelamin. I love to have those moment to be recorded or maybe i deep down in my heart I wish i can pick songs that i like to make the moment seem magical and lovely (is this the right word?) You know when we saw video of celebrity wedding with all the video edit when that moment come. Im so bad at describing this right now. Sorry.
Another one that i will try to make sure it will happen (In shaa Allah,amin) is I want a wedding potret taken in a studio maybe and it will give off elegant, majestic vibe? Because i always ike those black and white picture and the vibe they give . I dont know. hehehe. But of course i like to have those cute and romantic wedding picture, but this is one of my wish. I can not make it happened that day but maybe i will save it for my annivesary or something. heheh. I want to put picture as an example but the couple in that kind of picture which i like had divorce. so okay nevermind. you guys just imagine it, ok.
Oh yes, and another one i really would like to wear those sanggul which become a trend these days (this recent years?). A sanggul and for me it is best to wear with songket. Seriously i am supposed to wear it that day but I received something else. But whatever, i will still try to create chance so i can wear them. They are so beautiful, seriously. Thus, I really really want to wear them!
Im not sure do i really have a dream wedding before, but when i really need to prepare for my wedding I do have things that I want. Of course when everything was done, there are still things that are not going according to plan. Well that is the beauty of life isnt ? Allah S.W.T plan is the best for us because He know better. After all, I am still thankfull for everything.

Sunday 22 April 2018

Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Dear you,

I have felt the same thing in the past and the same thing happened again. I still remember how hurt I am when you hurt me back then, and now history repeat itself. i guess the scar will never heal properly and will always bleed easily.  
It happened when we are supposed to have fun and it just kill my mood that day. I feel so pathetic at that time. How can you hurt me like this? How much more you want me to be hurt? Are you not satisfied enough with what have you done before?
We are different now. I wish we can just ignore this because if the same thing happen before i will just try to forgive you, but now we are different. We have bigger responsibility now and this is not the time to play around like before. Because of that i was confused with myself. I am definitely have reached immune stage where things like this dont really affect me anymore, my recovery state is faster than before but when i think about what we have become i felt so confused. What i should really feel? What should i do?  I had mixed feeling and my dissapoinment have grown bigger than before.
It put me to a state of accepting everything, redha in anything that will happen because i realize nothing I can do to stop this. You are begging me to accept your apology but then i dont really feel your sincerity. That makes me think i am no longer can handle this anymore. It makes me feel insecure than ever. I have warned you before what will i do if the same thing happen but when it happened i dont think i am strong enough to face it, to fight for it. I dont know. I wish i will be stronger when the time come or I wish i will never face this all over gain.
I hope you will understand. My heart is no longer as it was before. There are too many scar that you can never see and i think some of it can never heal. There are part of me that still remember everything i feel that time and it will always be a part of me until i die.