Day 25 : A TV show you’re currently addicted to

Day 25 – A TV show you’re currently addicted to

 

Is TV show here include drama and variety show and everything that is on TV? Well let just do my way then :)

 

So for April, I watch Live and really love the drama. At first I only watch it because of Lee Kwang Soo and then while watching the teaser there was Bae Jong Ok and Sung Dong Il ! of course it makes me want to watch it more. 

 

Here is the synopsis from wikipedia :)

 

Live tells the story of police officers - from the lowest field cadets and patrol officers, to their superiors including corporals, captains, and more - as they form the 'Live' team at the Hongil patrol division. Each officer has their own story, and each works hard in their own places at one of the busiest, most stressful jobs in the world, in order to earn a living.

 

 

 

Lee Kwang Soo really is a good actor and poor him why do this drama also joke about his height? but maybe it is his charm and you can really spot him because of his height among those police when they are in line. Apart from Kwang Soo and the heroin, Jung Yu Mi story, Bae Jong Ok and his partner in the drama also play a big part in the drama. I almost confused why do Bae Jong Ok and Bae Sung Woo seem to have a bigger role in this drama. Isnt Kwang Soo the main lead?

 

Perhaps because they want to portray sunbae and hoobae or mentor-like relationship so they share the main role in this drama. Nevertheless it was worth it to watch this despite having thought like do Korean police do have to deal withh drunk people like that and it makes you realize how heavy their job really are and we really should appreciate them.

Day 24 : A photo of something that means a lot to you

Day 24 – A photo of something that means a lot to you

 

 This is quite tough. I dont want to put any of my personal picture here so let skip this part first and I will come back if I have any idea. Sorry. You may skip to other post. Thank you. :)

Day 23 : Your dream wedding

Day 23 – Your dream wedding

One of the things that i really would like to have is those moment when bride and groom walk on the red carpet ( or whatever carpet or no carpet) accompanied by kompang before bersanding atas pelamin. I love to have those moment to be recorded or maybe i deep down in my heart I wish i can pick songs that i like to make the moment seem magical and lovely (is this the right word?) You know when we saw video of celebrity wedding with all the video edit when that moment come. Im so bad at describing this right now. Sorry.

 

Another one that i will try to make sure it will happen (In shaa Allah,amin) is I want a wedding potret taken in a studio maybe and it will give off elegant, majestic vibe? Because i always ike those black and white picture and the vibe they give . I dont know. hehehe. But of course i like to have those cute and romantic wedding picture, but this is one of my wish. I can not make it happened that day but maybe i will save it for my annivesary or something. heheh. I want to put picture as an example but the couple in that kind of picture which i like had divorce. so okay nevermind. you guys just imagine it, ok.

 

Oh yes, and another one i really would like to wear those sanggul which become a trend these days (this recent years?). A sanggul and for me it is best to wear with songket. Seriously i am supposed to wear it that day but I received something else. But whatever, i will still try to create chance so i can wear them. They are so beautiful, seriously. Thus, I really really want to wear them!

 

 

 

 

Im not sure do i really have a dream wedding before, but when i really need to prepare for my wedding I do have things that I want. Of course when everything was done, there are still things that are not going according to plan. Well that is the beauty of life isnt ? Allah S.W.T plan is the best for us because He know better. After all, I am still thankfull for everything.

Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

Dear you,

I have felt the same thing in the past and the same thing happened again. I still remember how hurt I am when you hurt me back then, and now history repeat itself. i guess the scar will never heal properly and will always bleed easily.  

 

It happened when we are supposed to have fun and it just kill my mood that day. I feel so pathetic at that time. How can you hurt me like this? How much more you want me to be hurt? Are you not satisfied enough with what have you done before?

 

We are different now. I wish we can just ignore this because if the same thing happen before i will just try to forgive you, but now we are different. We have bigger responsibility now and this is not the time to play around like before. Because of that i was confused with myself. I am definitely have reached immune stage where things like this dont really affect me anymore, my recovery state is faster than before but when i think about what we have become i felt so confused. What i should really feel? What should i do?  I had mixed feeling and my dissapoinment have grown bigger than before.

 

It put me to a state of accepting everything, redha in anything that will happen because i realize nothing I can do to stop this. You are begging me to accept your apology but then i dont really feel your sincerity. That makes me think i am no longer can handle this anymore. It makes me feel insecure than ever. I have warned you before what will i do if the same thing happen but when it happened i dont think i am strong enough to face it, to fight for it. I dont know. I wish i will be stronger when the time come or I wish i will never face this all over gain.

 

I hope you will understand. My heart is no longer as it was before. There are too many scar that you can never see and i think some of it can never heal. There are part of me that still remember everything i feel that time and it will always be a part of me until i die.  

Day 21 – A photo of your favorite place to eat

 

Day 21 – A photo of your favorite place to eat

First of all, I think i dont really have any of favourite restaurant or place to eat. But I am someone who usually stick to few places that i familiar to and seldom trying out a new place unless recommended.

 

Because of where life takes me so i dont really live long at one place. So for now my favourite place will be in my family home area as i am currently living here since last year. There is one place that i think we only had gone there 3 times as far as i can remember but it was so good and i would like to repeat it again each month if we have time.

 

That place im not sure what is the name but they serve western and also goreng goreng ( im not sure how to describe this, but i know malaysian will understand :) One food that i fell in love with was nasi goreng chicken chop. It was my first time ever to try this and it was so good. The portion is reasonable with the price which i consider cheap for chicken chop. Sometimes chicken chop portion can be overwhelming as the price is also quite expensive but here it is rather cheap and the portion suits me.

 

I think i dont have the photo of the place ( im sorry, despite the challenge is to put a photo) but my point is to share with you guys i fell in love with their nasi goreng chicken chop and that place have become my favourite place to eat :)

Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name

Day 20 – The meaning behind your blog name

So my blog name basically from my pen name (nama pena) that i used after i ran out of idea and just want to get everthing started. That is why this blog gets it name 'The Hxna'. I am set to use Hxna as my identity here, creating a pseudonym for me in the blogsphere. But for the blog name, i dont think of anything so i just decided to use this.

 

I wish i can think of any other name which sound more cool than this. Its hard for me actually to create some identity or a meaningful name that somehow reflect me indirectly and im satisfied with it. I love people with their unique name and they using it as their avatar name, or their identity in online game and of course writers with their own pen name. That is seriously so cool and im not creative enough on those field.

 

One of the reasons was im just thinking too much and not creative enough to come up with anything cooler. That is why i just choose this with hope that it is enough to create some pseudonym while being here. I had a few name i came up when i start blogging back then in my early 20s but i want to start new so i dont use any of that. I guess it easier when you just be you and use your real name and everything but i choose not to share that here.

 

 

Day 19 : A picture of something you want to do before you die

Day 19 – A picture of something you want to do before you die

Just this one picture i think everyone can understand. In shaa allah. Semoga kita semua dapat menjadi tetamu di rumah Allah, amin.

Day 18 : 5 things that irritate ME about opposite/same sex

Day 18 – 5 things that irritate ME about opposite/same sex 

 I am mostly okay with everything and try to understand from the other person view and things that will irritate me sometimes varies depend on my mood. But there are also things i dont really tolerate and it get worse when im not in the good mood or hungry.

 

• When someone force on me do things without consulting me especially if it is about my life and preferences. It is okay if you want me to do it but explain to me, makes me understand why you think its okay if i do it, dont just simply plan my life without asking how i feel about it just because you want me to do it.

• When someone play with my hair. This is of course for people close to me like family and close friend. I just hate it when my sister start to joking around with my hair or just want to touch my hair abruptly. I seriously dont like it when someone touch my hair without notice and purpose.

• When living with inconsiderate people. I conclude everything related and using the word inconsiderate. It is really no joke when you are living with someone who is not family-related to you and that person really dont care what happen in the house. Lets just pick one things like, the responsibility the throw the rubbish. Ok. I dont really like to go further because i dont want to remember anything anymore. I wish i will not experience this again.

• When people use my things as if theirs. If you are borrowing it from me you should know when to return it. It is not yours by the way. No matter how small that things may be. And when you already borrow it once, you still dont have the right to just take it without asking to borrow it again. I really try to not to do this to other people as i really dont like it when people do this to me. I dont even like  to borrow something if i dont really desperate for it. Im willing to have it myself if i need to without borrowing from anyone.

• When people smoking. I use to just feel okay with it because i have some people close to me who are also smoke so im not hate it so much that i can not stand people smoking. No. Im okay. But after i live by myself from when i study and working, now, i hate the smell so much. Now, i will try to get as far as i can when people smoking. The air suddenly feel toxic and i can not stand it. I will close the door immediately if i was in the room. I dont care who do it, I just hate it.

 

 

 

 

 

Day 17 : How you hope your future will be like

Day 17 – How you hope your future will be like

I still remember one of my assignment in university was describing what is your life in 5 years from now. I basically being not realistic with my planning for future in the assignment. But i prove myself that i already know what i want to do in the long run and things that i want to achieve. Wish i can still find that assignment to reflect on myself. Of course the reality is different now.

 

One of the thing that I hope I will be in the future is receive my PhD and have Dr title. It seem impossible now, but still one of my biggest dream in my life since Form 5. I actually want to be a doctor but because I know my limit i change it to be Doktor Falsafah instead. Im not sure when will i achieve this but in shaa allah.

Another thing, I hope in the future I will be someone who my family can rely on and having small family with a few children and nice home and everything was enough. Isnt it typical?

Day 16 : Short term goals for this month and why

Day 16 – Short term goals for this month and why

 

 

Im not sure if i had one or not but the most important thing is i wish i can survive this month and quickly start May.

 

Something will change after this, as of now im not sure how long it will take but it surely will disturb my everyday life. Somehow i think  my sweet time doing nothing will end. Well nothing can be done it is my responsibility now. But yeah, i just hope i can manage and survive it well. Pray for me. :)

 

Puasa is next month and then raya, so maybe i will try to start look into my baju which i will use for raya. There is one piece of baju kurung that I bought last year but dont have the opportunity to wear it yet. It need some alteration so i need to start it already. I dont know menjahit but my mom is a tailor so its actually with my mom help. heheh. Thats one goal for this month.

 

What else? *thinking

 

Oh I need to finish watching Radio Romance. seriously. It has been so long i started it but still there a few episodes left and in the midst of that i start Live already and become addicted so much i cant stop. I just love Kwang Soo acting. he seriously stand out because of his height. Live is still ongoing and Im still waiting for newest episode to be sub so I should finish Radio Romance which has ended long before. heheh

 

 

 

That is all for now. see you :)

 

 

Day 15 : Something you don’t leave the house without.

Day 15 – Something you don’t leave the house without.

If it just about going somewhere near or for few hours, the thing i must have are (in order of most important) :

1. Watch
2. Handphone
3. Purse (spesifically ic, lesen, kad bank, duit) tu je penting kadang bwk purse kecik je kalau nk pegi kedai dekat dekat.
4. Ring on my jari manis (after become mrs and since tunang i think, i just feel like i need to where this, not because for some accessory. even keluar dekat dekat pun pakai jugak. another one because im afraid i dont look someone wife enough)
5. Makeup purse (the most important yg kena ada lip balm, compact powder, roll on perfume)

Thats all and i can just step outside of the house with a light heart :)

Day 14 : Who are you?

Day 14 – Who are you?

My name here, hxna. An identity I create to be here to express my idea, sharing my interest and mingle in the internet community in general. Outside, I am a daughter, a sister, a wife, a daughter in-law, and many more to come with age :)

Lets talk personaity trait! I think character also can answer the question of who i am. :) This is one things that i can think about and i kind of love this topic. Knowing yourself is actually important but sometimes its hard to do. I think I always finding about myself discovering more about me as i grow older. So this is one of the way i use to do to know more about me. By reading the characteristic of someone born on certain month, by type of our blood, our zodiac which related to our birth month, doing personality test and  many more. Here one of the example i choose from google.

 I think this one is a famous one and it was a research from Dato' Dr Fadzilah Kamsah. I cant agree more to most of the point listed especially the part which saying someone who is suka duduk rumah, banyak berfikir, kurang bercakap tetapi mesra, and tidak berapa berjaya dalam mengawal emosi. hahaha totally nailed it.

 

First of all I would like to say i dont do like daily horoscope things, what luck you wil have and such. This is only about how they describe a Sagittarius person which for someone born on November 22 until December 21. Below are some i take from Zodiacfire.

 

• Sagittarius is independent and hates being told how to live.

• Sagittarius can become ruthless when they feel they have been wronged.

• Sagittarius seeks out freedom and is extremely hard to pin down

• When Sagittarius is hurting they can distance themself from others and conceal their emotions.

 I really like to share about personality based on blood type but as of now im not sure what type of blood i am because i did check my blood type but that is when i was from 5 and in matric where we learn about blood type and you know what i got different result so im just not gonna believe it. Next time i will do it properly at clinic with certified doctor.

 

Day 13 : What kind of person attracts you?

Day 13 – What kind of person attracts you?

 1. People who have same interest as me

such as person who watch korean variety show, drama, into kpop song. like the same kpop group as i am. anything actually. when we have things we can talk about together it will be easy to be friend. having similarities is one of the way to start communication isnt it? frankly speaking i am more glad to follow blogger who into kpop and kdrama.

2. People which i can talk about anything

i want to believe myself as one of that person. an individual who can talk about anything, even if i dont really have an idea what are you talking about or the topic is really out of my world but i believe i can also give idea to continue the conversation. so i attracted to people who can talk anything with and instead of me having to tally the conversation to the other person, the other person can also talk what topic i want to.

3. People who i feel their elegance / swag / emitting aura of cool people / charisma in everything they do or their small gesture

i discover myself love to observe this kind of detail in persons around me. i love to watch their way of speaking or doing job or walking or everything. those small gestures or body languages that i found really cool which i wish can do that. for example im not sure if this is correct example, do you know how gdragon charisma when he dance on stage, he usually made this kind of face showing his coolness and swag. and also the small gesture namjoon made with his hand. okay whatever i dont expect people to understand this, im so bad at describing this. im sorry.

4. Generally people who i can just click, that match my character or im okay to hang out with without feeling any awkwardness brcause i totally hate awkward situation.

im okay with everyone but there are people that sometimes too loud (not literary) or love to jokes so much which contradict my humour code, or people who mess with me (not big mess but small mess that i cant really stand such as using my things without telling me and dont bother about it and somehow break my shoe rack without realizing it was other people stuff, my stuff!) you know things like that.

Day 12 : A photo of something that makes you happy.

Day 12 – A photo of something that makes you happy.

Im sure there are many things that makes me happy especially people around me which i am very thankful for them but i want to share you this. :)



BTS from Euphoria mv

I choose BTS as something that makes me happy despite everthing else because i cant think of anything else to membebel here if i choose something else for now. Because i currently is occupied by them. Have you watch BTS : Burn The Stage Ep 4 yet? I just finish that with my sister and it is so heartbreaking.

 

But before that i would like to thanks all army who helped fellow army like me who is in non accessible youtube red country and who dont know and dont want to deal with how to change vpn and etc. Thank you so much. Back to what i am saying before, it is so heartbreaking, seriously you can feel the mood is different and it is very rare to see them fight like that as they only show us their bright side. Thanks to Burn The Stage we got to see their different side which makes us love them more.

 

Back to the topic, they are one of the things that makes me happy. I dont get tired to watch them repeatedly everyday. Their bright personality, their goofiness, seriousness and everything i just love them. I think i watch everything about them in the v app, from Bangtan Gayo to Run BTS and also BTS Bon Voyage. I just feel happy when watching them and hope i can see them at their concert in the future!

Day 11 : 5 facts about you.

Day 11 – 5 facts about you.

This is facts about me. I choose something which not easily change or never will it change. well its a fact! lets go.

1. Status : mrs. 

I dont want to elaborate on that. heee

2. I am the oldest sibling im my family

I have 2 younger sister and 1 younger brother. but sometimes i do look like their younger sibling. hehe 

3. I wear my watch on my right hand

I start wear watch in my form 1 or form 3, i dont remember and since then i wear it on my right wrist. i dont have any particular reason why did i wear on my right hand. but majority of people wear it in their right left wrist. How about you?

Source : Google image

 

4. I went to 3 different primary school

this is due to my father job nature so we had to move and change school. it is a nice experience because that makes me learn to adapt to new place quickly. I am grateful to have this sort of experience.

5. I went to one sekolah menengah only

I went to the same school from Form 1 until Form 5 and also grateful for that. It sure different having the same classmate every year for 5 years and seeing the same teachers every year. I am glad i finish my Form 5 there. There are so much memory that sometimes i remember it and wonder what happen to everyone i know back then. I miss that moment. Do you miss your school?

 

Source : Google image

 

p/s: This is facts that i can think about as i try to omit things about my fav or things i like to do. So happy reading. :)

 

*update : thank you Littlexme for correcting me

Day 10 : A photo of the item you last purchased

Day 10 – A photo of the item you last purchased

I dont remember when did i buy this but this is item i last purchased. Im not sure is it last week? I dont know. I had a lot thinking before i buy this but i did buy it in the end.



Source : Google image

Okay, this pic from google im sorry, but this is the product that i buy. hehe This is moisturizing gel from Safi Balqis. Before this i use another moisturizing gel and this is my first time to try Safi Balqis product. It cost me RM 17.90 which i consider cheap because i need to wear this everyday.

 

What i love so far is when i wake up i dont feel muka i berminyak compare to if i dont wear this before sleep. and i love when my skin feel moist all the time. Frankly speaking im not that into skincare but i do pick knowledge about this here and there and finding product which suit me. As long i feel i have healthy skin im okay with myself.

Day 9 : Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

  Day 9 – Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

If anyone ever read my post which i sometimes write 'life partner' , so that is exactly what you think it was. Life partner as in lifetime partner till jannah kind of thing. hehehe I start to have a life partner since last year and it actually started 8 years ago. :)

 

In those 7 years there are so many things happen that im not sure if im exactly in relationship or not. We had a long distance relationship at that time so it inevitable if i feeling that way. But here we are now, officially someones's.

 

Is being in a relationship hard? Of course there are times when its hard but that dont stop you to not to be in relationship because while sometimes it hard we find strength to be together. Couple that whatever happen there are still together actually attracted to each other. That is something I want to believe. If it meant to be, it will be. If we are made for each other we will be with each other as long as we keep trying to be together no matter what comes.

 

 

 

 

 

Day 8 : A picture of your favourite memory

Day 8 – A picture of your favourite memory

One of my favourite memory is when i go for a short trip to Cameron Highland with my life partner. It was my first time to experience holiday like that. Though it was only for a few days but it was worth it and makes me crave to for another one.

Seriously, it feel really good to escape from your usual life or environment. It was my first time to cameron highlad so everything seem amazing to me. The weather the surrounding and everything. I feel so proud to have place like this in our own Malaysia. This is only Malaysia, wait until i go outside of Malaysia I dont know how will i feel then.

From the start I take picture of everything, selfie dari bilik hotel smpai balik semula ke hotel. Rasa tak puas nak tangkap gambar. Excuse my jakunes. Even i look glowing in the picture must be because the temperature and the excitedness inside me. Thank you to my partner because he is willing to go anywhere and everywhere just for the sake of jalan jalan.

Instead of trying food or do something i never done, for me i prefer to appreciate places i never went and enjoy the scenery the feeling being there itself. and i love to collect souvenir from places i go so looking forward to have a lots and lots of them in the future. Wish i have another trip this year.

Day 7 : A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet

Day 7 – A photo of an animal you’d love to keep as a pet

My family love cat. We start to have a pet when my father retired and we moved to rural area. Now it is already 8 years we live here and i cant count how many cats we ever had since we move here. Some had died and the cat mother already have a few generation here in our house.

I seriously love cat as in the whole cat family or feline. They are from Felidae family and according to Brittanica Encyclopedia, 

Feline, (family Felidae), any of 37 cat species that among others include the cheetah, puma, jaguar, leopard, lion, lynx, tiger, and domestic cat. 

I once had this thought i really love animal with four legs and hairy. of course that makes dog also a part of the description but i cant pet them so i will just admire their cuteness from picture. hehehe The big cat of course it is frigthening if we happen to be in front of them and had to confront them, they are carnivorous and those strong muscle we can never lose them but big cat cub is so cute. I want to pet them once. Suddenly feeling i need to go to the zoo at once. hahaha

 

Tiger cub

 

Lion cub

Look at these cubs they are soo cute. They look like a cat and i want to pet them rub their head and touch their paws, well of course they are in the cats family.hehehe Wish i can have one, But if i do have one maybe i will only take care of it when it was still cub. Kind of afraid a little when they got big. I cant with animals. I cried for any movie about animals. I cant watch hachiko again because i know i will definitely cry.

 

 

 

 

 

Day 6 : A song to match your mood

Day 6 – A song to match your mood

 Is it a song to match my mood now or in anyday depend on what mood im having? As of now I would like to say of course it is the new song from BTS new video that was uploaded yesterday without notice which makes the whole fandom shaken!! Gosh,  Is BTS will make comeback soon? Like very soon?  im afraid, im so excited that i cant content myself. My sister and I are screaming when we saw the video yesterday. We are actually watching Along with the god movie when suddenly my sister receive notification from ibighit youtube channel about bts new video title 'Euphoria : Theme of LOVE YOURSELF 起 Wonder'.

 

What is this???!!! everything was halt, the movie was paused and we watch the video. And when jungkook start singging Euphoria.. kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. We lost it then. And they are all black haired in the video kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. and of course the theories are coming in and i dont understand any of it and got confuse more when everyone started to make theory and i still dont get it. I wish bighit one day will release a book or film to explain all about this from a to z without any flashback and everyone can understand what is really going on. Okay back to the topic. I think for now this song really  match my mood. You should try listen to it too :)