Sunday 22 April 2018

Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently


Day 22 – A letter to someone who has hurt you recently


Dear you,

I have felt the same thing in the past and the same thing happened again. I still remember how hurt I am when you hurt me back then, and now history repeat itself. i guess the scar will never heal properly and will always bleed easily.  
 
It happened when we are supposed to have fun and it just kill my mood that day. I feel so pathetic at that time. How can you hurt me like this? How much more you want me to be hurt? Are you not satisfied enough with what have you done before?
 
We are different now. I wish we can just ignore this because if the same thing happen before i will just try to forgive you, but now we are different. We have bigger responsibility now and this is not the time to play around like before. Because of that i was confused with myself. I am definitely have reached immune stage where things like this dont really affect me anymore, my recovery state is faster than before but when i think about what we have become i felt so confused. What i should really feel? What should i do?  I had mixed feeling and my dissapoinment have grown bigger than before.
 
It put me to a state of accepting everything, redha in anything that will happen because i realize nothing I can do to stop this. You are begging me to accept your apology but then i dont really feel your sincerity. That makes me think i am no longer can handle this anymore. It makes me feel insecure than ever. I have warned you before what will i do if the same thing happen but when it happened i dont think i am strong enough to face it, to fight for it. I dont know. I wish i will be stronger when the time come or I wish i will never face this all over gain.
 
I hope you will understand. My heart is no longer as it was before. There are too many scar that you can never see and i think some of it can never heal. There are part of me that still remember everything i feel that time and it will always be a part of me until i die.  

11 comments:

  1. Thanks for sharing. I know that feel. :")

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  2. Everyone would say something like, "it's okay, it'll pass" but truth is, it's hard to get over the feeling. Be strong dear

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  3. People may forgive but never to forget... It's a wound that couldn't be mend..

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  4. its hurts most of the time but we need to look forward and forgive them somehow...just my 2cents

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  5. we've all been through that. sooner or later it'll pass but the scar wont ever fade.

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  6. auch, rasa mcm sha pulak tulis untuk orang tu

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